PAULINE ❤ ❤ ❤

Friday, April 13, 20123:54 PM

shouldn't have continue studying , should have gone to work, earn money and support myself . Now i'm a burden to mum. Always when quarelling she will be scolding that i'm always gentle to other than her. She don't even know how i'm like outside then she judge me. When i outside i can be the same as i'm like at home just that because of the environment i will be quiet doesn't mean that i'm gentle . I admit that i'm selfish, rude, bad tempered and all the negative things that you can think of . She will also say that she doesn't need our money to live she can support herself , i know right, i never say that she need. I just wish i can go work now instead of studying and waste her money. Same old things she will say that Dad is the most important to her, we the children are not important to her. So i'm just a burden to her, how i wish that i'm not in this world that most or all people don't like me , and even i don't like myself. I can say that i'm the most unfilial daughter in the whole world. I don't provide any form of financial support to the family , rather useless person. Saying how i treat her will be how my children treat me , i know i know. I always tell myself that in the future i will be treated badly and when i'm old i will suffer and live all alone , no one will be bothered by my existence. And when i die , i will suffer the worse treatment or punishment ever. I know these. If i can i wish and hope that i'm not in this world in exchange of daddy and jojo to live.

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